Someone's got to catch Hell. Otherwise, reincarnation will
get you killed...again.
Book 1 "The Outsiders Series"
Leigh Bridger is the dark fantasy pseudonym for Deborah Smith.
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From the gothic eccentricity of Asheville, North Carolina, to the
terrifying recesses of the Appalachian wilderness, from modern
demonology to ancient Cherokee mythology, Soul Catcher
follows the tormented journey of folk artist Livia Belane, who has
been stalked through many lives by a sadistic and vengeful demon.
Livia and her loved ones, including her frontier-era soulmate and
husband, Ian, a Soul Hunter, have never beaten the demon before.
Now, in this life, it's found them again.
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Prologue
Yeah,
flesh is temporary and souls are forever, but that was no fucking
comfort as I got ready to kill the man I'd loved for hundreds, maybe
thousands, of years.
"Don't be thinking too hard about it, just do the deed, Livia," Ian
said softly. "When the fecking bastard comes up the stairs, kill him
quick too. Then you and me will go at him together. 'Tis the only
way."
Ian's
blood seeped from the gashes in his side onto the gray, weathered
floor. This time I couldn't heal him. I could only free him.
Outside, in the strangely bright sunshine of a North Carolina
morning, things you don't want to imagine in your worst nightmares
tried to rip the building's tall industrial windows out of their
aging brick sills. Downstairs, the thick wooden door of the old
Asheville Bible printing shop bulged inward as Pig Face slammed it
again. The wood began to splinter.
I
cocked the pistol. Everything inside me screamed against pointing it
at Ian's heart. Fucking irony. I hated his body; I ought to be able
to kill it without caring. But a funny thing had happened on the way
to that moment. I'd fallen in love with my husband again. Even in
this ass backward life, despite the body he'd picked this time.
Regardless of what that body had done to me when Pig Face owned it.
I
knelt over Ian, straddling him. His blood stained my knees. I put
both hands on the shaking gun to steady my aim. My tears fell on his
blood-stained face. He managed a rueful smile. "Now, that's a sight
I'll remember to death and back," he whispered. For once in our
life, I let him know I could cry over him. He clamped one bloody
hand on mine. As always, we shared the choices, the pain, the
passage.
"See
you later," I said hoarsely. I pulled the trigger.
1
Even
when I was a kid I could see the future coming at me like a bad
video I couldn't erase. After all, I'd had a lot of experience
living and dying. I thought this particular life was just another
practice drive on the fucked-up road to eternity. The problem with
reincarnation is that each time you're re-born you forget everything
you learned already, so you have to go through all the panic and the
freaking out and the learning process again. You can't remember how
you died the last time, and why. You don't automatically recognize
the souls you've learned to trust in all those lives before this
one, and you don't understand that there always has been, and always
will be, this one incredible soul mate who'll do whatever it takes
to keep finding you, no matter how lost or hidden you are. So each
new life seems like just another long, scary trip down Lonely Town
Road.
This
one didn't promise any better sightseeing.
Granny Warwick said I had to deal with destiny, so she took me to
meet Preacher T high in the soul-baiting, demon-luring mountains
above Asheville. There are energy vortexes in the Appalachians
powerful enough to conjure Godzilla out of a toilet in Tokyo. The
vortexes around Asheville are party central for the dispossessed.
When
we drove into Preacher T's yard after bouncing over at least two
miles of rutted dirt road along mountain ridges and through creek
bottoms, what I saw made me tremble in my jeans and Rainbow Brite
t-shirt. I could feel my black braid shivering down my back.
Preacher T had giant snakes in his yard.
They
crawled from the carcasses of junked cars; they slithered from the
roof of his run down cabin; they lay in sinister piles, like puppies
sleeping, in the dark eye of his barn loft. Some were made of metal
car parts; others were linked pieces carved from wood. All were
painted in eye-popping bands of color, the brightest house paint an
old man could buy or scrounge from the county dump. All had wide,
all-seeing eyes.
And all had a white
crucifix painted on their heads.
"Is
he plain crazy?" I asked Granny.
"No,
he's one of your spirit guides," she said. "When you're older,
you'll understand."
I
knew this much: Preacher T wasn't your regular North Carolina fire
and brimstone preacher; he wasn't a preacher at all. He painted
primitive art, folk art, outsider art, some called it. Granny was
simpatico with the world of reclusive painters and obsessed
sculptors who lived beyond the fringes of normal folks. She could
handle it. Outsider art bewilders the piss out of most people, and
fundie Christians seem convinced it's a kind of devil worship.
It
offers up a double-dose of doom and weirdness, and some of the
artists who create it come off like homeless schizophrenics talking
to invisible beings on street corners, preaching the soul's
apocalypse. For sure, Granny's folk art cronies painted some
bizarre-ass demons and unholy, weeping angels and devil-things. Plus
they scrawled incoherent messages on their paintings and sculptures,
like warnings encrypted in rambling Bible references.
"Warnings and illumination," Granny said. "That's what this art is
about." Postcards from a war zone. Most Wanted mug shots off
the post office wall. Illustrations from the programming manual at
GoodVersusEvil.com
Okay,
okay, but here's what mattered to me that day: At the tender age of
only ten I was painting that brand of creepy shit too. I couldn't
help myself. It came to me. Like I was just the messenger.
She
locked the door of her big-ass pickup truck and tucked a pistol in
her macramé tote bag. "He's not crazy. But he's got the sight. And
that makes people think he's crazy."
"Like
me?" I whispered.
She
nodded. "Come on, Livia," she commanded, drawing me by the hand
through that yard of huge, watchful snakes. "Don't be scared of the
beast in its hard form; these hold the spirits of guardians. You can
call them angels if that makes you feel better."
I
didn't want to call them anything. I wanted to leave. Mother
might hate church, religion, hope, faith and life itself since Daddy
died the way he did, but if she'd known Granny had brought me here
to Snake World, talking about angels and guardians and carrying a
gun to visit a crazy old folk artist, she'd throw a fit. She was
scared of the darkness. She could not reconcile Daddy's suicide. She
didn't seem to notice that it haunted me, too.
A
huge old black man in paint-smeared overalls rose from a circle of
large dogs and green-eyed cats on the cabin porch. Dark tattoos
covered his arms and forehead, merging with his dark skin in places.
Religious symbols and images from his art hung from every rail and
rafter. I stared at spiked creatures with angel wings. They didn't
look angelic to me.
The
cats perched on old kitchen cabinets like the ripped-out kind you
buy at salvage stores. Preacher T had painted with symbols and
strange animals. The disembodied cabinets made a fort around him.
Behind him, an open screen door let me peek into a dark room crammed
to the ceilings with paint cans, brushes, bolts of canvas, and
tools.
"I've
been waiting to meet this child a long, long time," Preacher T
announced in a voice like a bear. I squinted at him. For just one
moment he grew a black-bear snout and fur. "I see the light around
her, Jeannie. Maybe this time she'll live long enough to become . .
."
Granny cut him off with a hiss.
Live long enough to . . . live to . . . maybe this time I'd live?
My head swam.
"She
doesn't know what she is?" Preacher T growled.
"Godssake, Preacher, she's only ten. She needs help. The girl has
taken to cutting herself. If she's got no paint on hand, she uses
her own blood. She's gotten lots worst since her daddy died."
He
took my scarred arm in a huge hand etched with words on the backs of
every finger. PRAY. WATCH. GUARD. RESIST. He stared at me. He
reached behind him, into a pile of whittled amulets, and pulled out
an ankh on a leather thong. "This'll do for a start," he said, and
slipped it around my neck.
Granny pulled the necklace off and handed it back. "She wears a
cross, see here?" Granny lifted the small gold emblem that dangled
from a chain near Rainbow Brite's cartoon face. "I can't get
anything else past her mama. Not without explaining, and you know
how that is. I don't like to be called crazy, either."
Preacher T scowled. "You better figure a way then. This ain't no
game. The good spirits are drawn to blessed symbols. This child
needs to draw all the help she can."
"What are
y'all talking about?" I asked in a low, horrified voice.
Preacher T
squatted in front of me. "Livia Van Belane, you're special. It's a
gift or a curse, but you got it, either way. I know you don't
understand now, but you will, child, I'm sorry but you will. You got
to be strong. There are trials and tribulations for the holy, that's
what the Bible and all the other good books tell us. You remember
that whatever happens, it's the spirits trying to push you this way
or that. Try to think for yourself and whatever you do, don't stop
your painting. What do you see when you paint pictures, child?"
"They're monsters. I've never seen anything like them in movies or
comic books. Not even in Star Wars. I'm scared to sleep. I
can almost hear them. I only see them in my sleep. That's when I
paint their pictures."
"Those are
demons, child. Demons and their helpers. When you're ready, you'll
be able to see them without going to sleep first. And not just
demons. But angels, too. You'll know the difference."
"I don't
want to see them!"
"I know,
child, but your soul chose this job for you, and it knows best." He
spread his hands. "Now here's what you do. This ain't the only way
to fight demons, but it's the easiest to explain. When you wake up
and find that you've painted a demon during the night, you take that
picture outside right quick! And you burn it."
He
nodded up at Granny. "Your grandma'll help you with the chore. But
you do it every single time, all right? 'Cause that's one way to
send a demon out of this life forever. It's a banishment."
"We'll burn the paintings from now on," Granny assured him.
"Good. What's happening, child, is that you're snaring demons in
your sleep. Like you've set a rabbit trap in the woods, you
understand? And once you catch one, don't you set it free again! No,
ma'am. You got to banish it while it's trapped in your painting.
Right quick."
He
was telling a ten-year-old whose father had committed suicide that
the light behind the very air we breathe really did hold horrors.
Nausea boiled in my throat. I gagged. "Is my daddy out there with
the demons?"
"No,
baby. Some demon got rid of him so he can't watch over you no more.
Your daddy is one of your spirit guides. Demons always try to pick
off the spirit guides first."
I
exploded. "A demon did not get my daddy! My daddy could kill any
demon in the whole world!" I hadn't been raised to yell at elders
that way, but hell, I hadn't been raised to capture demons in my
crayon art, either. "My daddy fell off the high falls at Ludaway
Ridge. He tripped and fell!"
Granny turned me to face her. "No, baby child, he didn't fall and he
sure didn't jump," she said in a low, sad voice. "He was pushed."
I
stared at her until I thought my brain would melt. I pulled away
then stumbled across the yard, halting in the middle of Preacher T's
junk-art snakes. I looked at one of them, banded in white and purple
with the white cross gleaming between its black eyes, and my vision
blurred, and it seemed to me, it seemed at the time, that the
snake pulled back its lips and smiled at me.
I
screamed.
Granny grabbed me up, cooing. I went nearly limp in her arms. I felt
as if my eyes would roll back in my head.
"The
child's heard enough," Granny told Preacher T. She nuzzled my black
hair with her cheek. "All you need to do for now is learn and grow,"
she whispered. "And don't stop painting."
Preacher T came down from his ramshackle front porch, his animals
around him. "Jeanie Warwick, you protect that child with every
spirit symbol you can," he boomed. "I tell you, you do it now. This
world is full of demons and they're getting worse every day. She's
got a job to do and this time, by God, she better live to do it."
"I'll
find a way," Granny promised. I was still staring at the purple
snake. The one who'd smiled. It smiled again. Wider. Preacher T
looked from the purple snake to me. "She's found her a friend,
Jeannie. Good." He went back inside, and when he returned he
pressed a whittled miniature of the purple snake into my sweating
hand. "Give it a name and talk to it," he said. "It'll listen. And
it'll tell you things you need to know."
The
snake charm moved against my fingers. Warm. Comforting. Strange, for
a snake.
I
vomited on myself, the snake charm, and Granny's tie-dyed shirt.
*
Granny drove me straight to Asheville from there. The city was a
two-hour trip along narrow roads that wound around mountainsides
like snakes. Everything was a snake, to me. I lay against the
truck's passenger door with my face against the cool glass,
unmoving. I clutched the snake charm in one fist.
"Where we're going, you can't ever tell," Granny said. "And what we
do there, never show your mama."
Granny was a Christian woman by all accounts, but I already
suspected that was a cover, or maybe just one of the swords she held
against the darkness. Mother let her take my baby brother and me to
the First Methodist church in our tiny town, Ludaway, but she tucked
strange bookmarks into her Bible, symbols she'd drawn on card stock
and glossed with varnish, and during the services she moved her
mouth in Christian prayer but stroked the symbols with her
fingertips. Like she needed a back-up system in case the first one
failed.
She
took me to Asheville often, telling Mother we liked to stroll the
streets and look up at the grand old buildings. But the truth was
this: Granny taught me all about the city so that I would know where
to find its safe places, and I don't mean the ones with a low crime
rate. The ones supervised by angels.
Asheville is a haunted city atop a high plateau necklaced by the
French Broad and Swannanoa Rivers. Its back streets are narrow and
filled with deep shadows. Its massive and gothic downtown buildings
sink their foundations into ancient trails and the lost dreams of
Cherokee Indians. Many gilded and violent lives have passed through
the streets and the mists along the rivers. And many of those souls
are still there.
Granny carried me into an alley where moss clung to damp drain
pipes. I looked down woozily at stepping stones set with weird
patterns of beads and colored glass. We ducked into a doorway
beneath the stained glass symbol of a bleeding moon.
A
young woman with long blonde dread locks and gold lame' leggings
frowned at us over her tattoo machine. She was etching a marijuana
leaf on her own forearm. Granny handed her money and they talked in
long, hushed words. I didn't want to hear. My eyes drifted over
walls of strange designs, fascinated. The snake wound around my ring
finger.
Don't look at those, it whispered. Some of them draw banes.
I didn't
know what a bane was then, but I averted my eyes anyhow. The purple
snake was talking to me now. I'd better listen. Which seemed all
right, considering. The blonde woman gestured. I curled on my side
atop a softly woven rug on the floor, and Granny undid my long black
braid and parted it vertically down the side of my skull, just above
my left ear. She plucked the hair one strand at a time. Later, when
I had the courage to lift my hair and look in a mirror, I saw a
naked strip two inches long and an inch wide.
My
brain hummed as the tattoo needle buzzed in my ear. Tiny symbols
embedded themselves in me. A cross, a Star of David, an ankh, and
other symbols, some so odd that Granny drew them on paper for the
tattoo artist to copy.
I was
marked now, or protected, or scarred, depending on your point of
view. It would take Mother a few years to find the hidden line of
strange encryptions on my scalp, and by then, Granny and Preacher T
would be dead, removed from this life in violent ways I tried not to
think about. Just as they'd worried, something was closing in on me,
and that that something decided they had to be eliminated
first.
Finally, it took Mother and my brother and what was left of
everything normal I'd ever been or hoped to be.
*
Our
pretty little house in the sweet little mountain town of Ludaway
caught fire when I was eighteen. Mother and little Alan died in
their beds of smoke inhalation. I woke up naked in a neighbor's yard
with my hair in singed hunks around my face and the skin peeling off
my burned feet. I clutched a sooty piece of canvas frame in my hand.
I didn't know how I got out of the house and couldn't remember
anything about the fire. Investigators decided it started in my
bedroom.
Had I done
something stupid and careless while burning a painting? Or had I
gone psycho and set the whole house on fire on purpose? Why couldn't
I remember? No one, not even me, could say whether I was a victim or
an arsonist and murderer. They sent me to a nice little institution
way over in the flatlands of Chapel Hill, where researchers from the
university gave me heavy doses of anti-psychotics that still didn't
keep me from painting demons with my own blood at night. Finally,
they gave up, judged me harmless to anyone but myself, and let me
out.
They were
right. I could only harm myself. Living with the unanswered
questions about what happened the night Mother and Alan died pretty
much killed me inside.
And
the darkness, filled with danger, started closing in.
2
Six years later
Something terrible was about to happen. Stars had aligned. A
threshold had been crossed. The dark eye of Mordor had turned my
way. Toto, we are not in Kansas anymore.
I saw
tracks in my studio's backyard no living animal could make. Nothing
known to man has eight finger-like toes on its paws, long claws, and
a heel hook like the spur on a rooster's foot.
Not
inside the city limits of Asheville, anyhow.
I
couldn't quite shrug it off. Couldn't quite convince myself this was
just another multi-dimensional mind fart. Until then I was
comfortable being diagnosed as completely, totally, fucking
delusional. A highly functional schizophrenic. Better to explain my
weird shit in those terms than to think the things I saw and did
were rational reactions to my everyday reality. Otherwise I'd end up
gumming my oatmeal in a padded room again or dead under a bridge
near a homeless shelter. No biggie.
I
could handle self-destruction, either way. I'd tried to kill myself
about a dozen times in the six years since the house fire, but my
hallucinations kept interfering. Angels, right. I just didn't have
the guts to off myself in a competent way. I'd have to keep
practicing.
In
the meantime, I humored my fears. Some of the tattoos covering both
my arms from shoulders to wrists were protective. Some were hopeful.
Some were in-your-face threatening. Some were sentimental. But most
hid scars. Over the years I'd tried the obvious solution to stop
painting demons in my sleep. I'd locked up my acrylics and oils and
canvases at night. I locked myself into bathrooms. Handcuffed myself
to beds. Handcuffed myself to men I fucked so I wouldn't have to
sleep alone. I'd sat on park benches all night, playing checkers
with the street people, beating African drums with rhythmic old
druggies, whatever.
It
never worked. When I was in a trance I used whatever made a mark.
Ketchup, barbecue sauce, mud, soap. Or, deprived of all else, my own
blood. Old childhood habits are hard to break. When you're in a
trance the surface of your skin parts under your teeth and
fingernails like a fine seam. I never felt the pain until I woke up
the next morning with a gash in my arm and something awful and
bloody staring at me from the nearest paintable surface.
This
time was different. This time was the major leagues of terror. This
time there had been tracks.
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